I guess I am Crazy, I still think I can make a difference. My friends and family would not understand my desire to got to #TEDTalks, Just like they did not understand my desire to make a documentary and just because I failed there is no reason not to try. As far as I can tell life is about the trying maybe you can use that last line either way. When you grow up poor you don’t get choices you get reality and somehow we have to move and progress.
I’m not sure there are any qualifications for a dream and why should there be. I never understood not trying. I learned early to acquiesce to a mad man and choices were luxuries that none of us could afford. Your only choice was get beat up or get someone else beat, either way someone was getting beat. I use to play this game with myself. I called it, “invisible” in which the object of the game was to get as close to invisible as possible and believe me if you chose to but I came as close to invisible as humanly possible. I had lots of choices in my head and I could travel to them in my mind. No one had to tell me to sit still it was nearly impossible to do anything else. You learn stillness early it settles you and yet is so uncomfortable,. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop or fist or belt or spoon or whatever was at hand. I suppose all writing is cathartic, but I feel qualified for my dreams.
Same as Not
I discovered early in my childhood that I was different and I don’t mean like I was weird. I just mean that my mind was wired different. I saw beauty in things easily, I knew I had value, I knew I had worth and although the harshness of my environment changed me, it did not change me for the worse. I have fought my feelings but again not how you might think. I fight that there was value in my childhood. That somehow someone would win if I acknowledged my own growth. It’s a bitter pill to swallow to associate your own strength with the abuse provided by another. I often find still I put out my feelers quickly and have a decent sense of people although the curse is you never know to what measure. I might feel someone is negative and not out for my good, but you don’t know to what measure. I have had to learn to love my differences and learned to realize I have a very unique perspective, so the sameness I craved I just had to let it go.
I have been drawn into health care for a reason and all though I am not a clinician I certainly feel that my dream of helping to change the nature of health care is a part of my tribulations. I see and meet so many wonderful people who are faced with such terrible basic health care, for most there is no basic health care and the only thing treated is urgent or emergent. I hear providers say, ” this patient is never going to comply”, and I always wonder to myself, ” then why take that course” . I have come to believe that our crisis in health care is not only that patients are dieing but that providers are dieing as well. There desire to care for others is slowly drifting out of their own practice of medicine. I know we can rescue the spirit of health care providers I feel strongly that if given the tools and the chance most providers would flourish and the state of health care would dramatically improve. Somewhere inside me I know that there is a reason I try and get involved. I know what it feels like to have a damaged spirit and I know how to help people out of it. We can change anything we want to. Take back our health and say no more am I going to be a code, No longer will I sit back and allow this suffering.
We Don’t Have To
I have an idea of getting primary providers involved with cutting edge technology and design to reinvigorate their spirit of health care and to create medicine that is effective and prevention based, provides better access , and is more cost effective. It’s simple and achievable. we live in a world of Technology and design impacts are lives more times then most people realize. What if we were to think about medical applications first and then bring it to design. It seems to me that utilizing the latest technology should not be based on the technology first with medical applications being an after thought or a money grab. We could get together thought leaders in multiple fields and create from the perspective of care delivery.
THIS IS WHY I WANT TO GO TO TEDTALKS
An idea worth sharing is what I have and I know that probably people better qualified than I am on paper but when it comes to the outreach and development I will give anyone a run for their money. My dreams may not be qualified but that does not reduce their potential impact.
Please help me get to Ted Talks, repost, republish, tell anyone, tell everyone, I know u can all have an impact in your own small way.
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Don’t qualify your dreams